Tag Archives: Life

I am rotting in this rut of mine.

22 May

I’ve been in this horrible rut for almost 2 weeks.

I want to eat bars of chocolate, stuff my face with chips, and drink coffee like there’s no tomorrow.

I’m tired, stressed, uninspired. It’s quite annoying really.

I’ve felt like this before and usually I’ll snap out of it but this time is different. It’s like I’m set on destroying myself piece by piece.

No matter what I clean or cook or how many times I get up to go to the gym I just keep falling back down.

Maybe it’s the weather. Maybe it’s lack of sleep. Maybe it’s the stress and uncertainty.

Maybe, I need to suck it up and pull myself together.

Monday glory.

29 Apr

Mondays are a blessing.

It’s the start of a new week. A new promise. A fresh start.

No matter how shitty last week was, what you did, didn’t do, said, ate, saved for later, ignored… Monday is always a new beginning.

So here’s to today.

Take the extra step, go outside, set some time to workout, be kind, eat more fruits and veggies, look at yourself and say, “Damn, I’m a sexy/kind motherfucker.”

Own your actions, forgive (but don’t forget that shit), clean your goddamn mess (you can’t get your zen on covered in dirty clothes and dishes), turn off the TV/phone/tablet and spend time with your family, listen to the people you love, and most importantly…

Live, love, laugh.

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No excuses, really.

25 Apr

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Get it people. You don’t have to achieve a certain level of muscle, the ass of an 18 year old bikini model, or live up to some picture you saw on your friends cousins Instagram feed. Just be healthy. For you, for your kids if you have them, but really just for you.

Bills? Paid, almost.

26 Mar

Dear tax return, thank you.

We were able to pay our cable, water, electricity, and phone bills. You sexy thang you. We were even lucky enough to save some of our pawned possessions.

We had the chance to eat out and not stress over the bill (still under $60 for four). I even got some comfy flats and new flip flops!

Thanks again tax return. You really helped us get on track. We’re not quite there yet but getting closer every damn day.

Live, love, laugh. Actually laugh a lot. Stress kills and gives you wrinkles. Trust me, my face is proof people.

Why can’t there be calm before more calm?

15 Mar

My water was shut off. I have no gas. I feel like a shit parent because I’m so stressed. I have a couple of dollars left in my bank account and won’t be seeing a paycheck or tax refund until the end of March.

That’s a whole lot of surviving with two kids on $2. I feel as though I’m stuck in this huge, deep hole of endless consequences that’s just consuming me ever so slowly.

I keep telling myself to breathe. It’s just not enough anymore.

Oh heeeey, still poor.

29 Jan

Here are some quick confessions…

1. I don’t remember the last time I shaved my legs and have now resorted to wearing boxers. I’m a sexy lady.

2. I have given up on deodorant.

3. I farted and blamed it on my baby more than once.

Cool things that have happened…

1. I learned to make some pretty tasty salsas.

2. I’ve worn and hit all my daily goals with my Fuel Band for a month! Don’t get too excited I’m still chubby but totally adorable.

3. I’ve stopped eating horrible calorie drenched meals after 8pm.

In case you were wondering…

Yes, we’re still poor and in debt but have made a lot of budget cuts and progress!!

We got rid of cable, the internet, and have made it a point to not eat out or purchase unnecessary overpriced coffee anymore. I’m making sure to buy produce that’s in season and trying my best to go through everything we have first before going to the store again.

It’s been hard but definitely worth it. Yes, I want to buy the cute boots that are on sale. It’s winter. I want the cozy sweaters, jackets, and skinny jeans. I want my girls to have new everything. I wish I could order yummy food and not have to clean up after cooking. I want I wish I want I wish.

I’m getting over it.

Live, love, laugh!

Goodbye, yellow tag road.

13 Jan

Yellow tags, yellow tags hanging from my door, don’t you know I’ve got no money? Please give me a break (two more weeks, what’s two more weeks?) and go.

I promise to pay you off but today is not the day, I’ve got groceries to buy and my hair is turning gray.

I’m talented. I know.

In all seriousness, I was drowning in a sea of yellow tags. They’d be everywhere. I’d be overwhelmed. I had to make changes.

My dad cut me off and gave me some speech about fishing which just made me crave salmon and that shit is expensive. Throw some asparagus and mashed potatoes and you had me at salmon.

No really, in order to start climbing my way out of debt I had to make major adjustments to my not-even-close-to affluent lifestyle. My fiancé and I decided to give up the internet, cable, new clothes/shoes, eating out, overpriced coffee, our gym memberships, and pizza.

We had our last pizza, beer, wings, and Netflix movie extravaganza last night. It was everything I thought it would be.

I’m really excited about paying off our debts and not coming home to yellow tags on my door. I can do this. We can do this. Being frugal doesn’t have to be boring. Here’s to discovering our neighborhood on a budget of free.

Live, love, laugh.